[Nope, Destroyer of Blorbos]
writer • menance • hawks scholar • oc brainrot extraoirdinare
![What a cozy little [home] I've made for myself...](assets/images/gallery05/334cbe3e.jpg?v=cdec6955)
What a cozy little [home] I've made for myself...
[id]
[ego]
[superego]
[intersubjectivity]
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery12/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
The characters who shape the worlds I write.This is a catalog of the minds that refused to stay in the background.
If you didn’t think I went overboard with my dedication to my craft already, there was also the time I built an entire gastropub employee ecosystem to make Kaskel’s world feel more lived-in. In the Bonus Features world hub, you’ll find the staff directory and other orbit characters.
![[my writing]](assets/images/gallery10/86cf97af.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[my writing]
I write the way Hawks hands over the Meta Liberation War book—casual on the surface, coded underneath.It’s all in layers: light tone, heavy subtext, and meaning tucked where you’ll catch it if you’re looking.If you read between the lines, you’ll find what I left there for you—quiet truths, rough edges, and the things I can’t say outright.This is where I keep the stories that matter to me: the messy ones, the sweet ones, the ones with teeth.
![[projects]](assets/images/gallery35/c6e95ae9.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[projects]
I build things. I run things. I accidentally become staff in places—often because I build and run things.Much like Tyrion, I drink and I know things.Here’s the collection of fandom servers and projects I’m currently keeping alive through sheer force of will and varying levels of involvement.
[active servers]
The communities I currently run or help maintain administratively.
If I'm in the admin logs at 3 AM, it's probably one of these.
The Aviary
Role: Founder, head admin, infrastructure gremlinVibe: A verified 18+ supportive multi-fandom creative community server that is currently MHA-heavy because Hawks brainrot spreads like a virus. It’s multi-national and mod-supported. Ever eldrtich-feline coded, I mostly drift in and out depending on how my CPTSD is behaving. I keep the lights on; the team keeps the vibes good.Status: Active
Access: Application-based, invite-only, but open-invite.
The Flock
Role: Head adminVibe: A server I inherited that’s evolved into a more focused writing and beta-reading space, with structured sections for authors that the larger server can’t accommodate. I pop in when needed, but at this stage I’m mostly hands-off and let the space run itself.Status: Active
Access: Application-based; ask for link
The Rookery
Role: Head adminVibe: Once upon a time, The Aviary allowed bot creators in. The majority voted them out, so this space was spun up to over support with the expectation of ethical use—"for fun" use, not "write my story for me." I only pop in for infrastructure support; otherwise, it runs itself.Status: Active
Access: Application-based; ask for link
Ulthar
Role: Founder, head adminVibe: My bunker when the CPTSD acts up. It's a small, cozy space that functions more like a blanket fort than a server. It's a mutual-support space where everyone looks out for each other, and it's where I'm most active when I'm regulating.Status: Active
Access: Invite-only
Fifth Wing
Role: Founder, head adminVibe: A mything-coded space built around layered access tiers and collaborative needs. Part sactuary, part storytelling engine, part "you must be this feral to enter."Status: Active
Access: Application-based
The Esoteric Order of Dagon
Role: Founder, head adminVibe: My tight-knit gaming server. Pure, unfiltered chaos with a side of eldritch nonsense. It's small, loud, and exactly the level of unhinged you'd expect from the Diety from which its name is derived."Status: Active
Access: Private, invite-only
The Constellation
Role: Founder, head adminVibe: A very small, private space for my family and family-adjacent folks, and the parts of life that don't belong anywhere else. Quiet, close-knit, and intentionally tiny. More hearth than server.Status: Active
Access: Private, invite-only
[mod roles]
Spaces where I'm not the founder, but I try to help keep things running, the bots behaving, and the gremlins contained.
MHA Heartache/Slash Bang
Role: General mod, beta mod, writing mod, beta readerVibe: An event server dedicated entirely to emotional damage as a community sport, with structured spaces for writing, art, and catharsis.Status: Active
Access: Event applications
[archives]
Nothing lives here yet. Everything I've built is still running, still evolving, or refusing to die out of sheer spite.
[external projects]
Blogs, event hubs, and other infrastructure that live outside this Carrd. If it's not a server, but still part of my chaos, it goes here.
MHA Heroes in Every Hue
Role: Writing contributorVibe: A collaborative multi-creator zine project celebrating diverse heroes and storytelling. I am contributing a written piece to the anthology. One of the rare times when my work lives outside of my servers.Status: Active
Access: Public release pending project schedule
LOV: A Kinder Fate
Role: Carrd build & maintenanceVibe: A dedicated Carrd for the zine "LOV: A Kinder Fate". It's clean, structured, and designed to keep the project information organized. I built the layout from scratch using the provided information and graphics and handled the updates.Status: Active
Access: Public
Link: LOV: A Kinder Fate
![[basic info]](assets/images/gallery06/109ef856.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[basic info]
| name | Nope | pronouns | Any |
| age | 25+ | birthdate | 7/27 |
| gender | Agender | sexuality | Demi-Grayce |
| mbti disc vops | INTJ-T SC Proc | sun moon rising | Leo-1 Libra Gemini |
[about]
I’m Nope—writer, editor, long-term Hawks apologist, and dedicated scholar of one very complicated bird man. I am the menace behind Hawks’ Flat Ass and write Hawks-centric character-driven fic; overanalyze narratives; treat Hawks like a full-time research project. Oscillating between serious meta and feral bird-man brainrot, I pick apart characters and delve into their psychology. This Carrd collects my writing, boundaries, projects, and ways to connect with me.I’m a cat-coded sanctuary builder, powered by devastating fiction, colour-coded spreadsheets, and an alarming amount of stimulants.If you’re here for Hawks content, OC brainrot, emotional damage, or general fandom chaos— welcome home.
![[read before proceeding]](assets/images/gallery01/0b06812e.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[read before proceeding]
[boundaries]
I’m here to have fun, write too much about Hawks, and build spaces that feel safe, cozy, and a little unhinged in the best way.
Please respect the following:
Don’t be weird about me.
Don’t treat me like a character or surface for your projections. I am not your mirror.
Don’t bring drama, discourse, or fandom politics into my inbox. I’m not interested.
Don’t assume familiarity—I’m friendly, not free real estate. I don’t do parasocial.
Do not repost, steal, or repackage my work anywhere.
I block premptively. If you feel entitled to me, you won’t get access to me.
If you’re affiliated with individuals who have engaged in DARVO shit, libel, slander, spies, and harassment, kindly fuck off.
Fandom and writing are a sanctuary, not a battleground.
[content expectations]
My writing and spaces include:
Hawks-centric character studies
Trauma, recovery, and psychological themes
Morally complicated situations
Emotional Damage [/a]
Feral bird-man brainrot
Meta, analysis, and narrative dissection.
Collapse, repair, and emotional sovereignty
If you found your way here, you probably already know what you’re signing up for.
If not—welcome to the deep end.
[dni]
For everyone’s safety, including my own, please avoid interacting with me or my work if you:
engage in harassment, purity policing, ship-shaming, or extraction
can’t separate fiction from reality and read it as confession
are under the age of 18
participate in call-out culture or fandom witch hunts
disrespect creator’s boundaries and treat them as cruelty or otherwise feel entitled to access
expect emotional availability on demand
are here to monitor, report, or perform concern
are affiliated with unearthlycanine / asacredphoenixrises or assassinatechickennugget.
This isn’t personal—it’s about keeping my spaces safe and functional.
[permissions]
Here's what you can do:
Link to my work
Create playlists, mood boards, or meta inspired by it.
Talk about it in your own spaces.
Draw fanart of my OCs or fic concepts (please send it to me or tag so I can swoon and, with your permission, embed it into my fic)
Here's what you cannot do:
Repost my writing
Translate my work without permission
Use my OCs in your own stories without permission
Scrape my content for AI training or datasets
Monetize anything derived from my work
If you’re unsure, ask—I don’t bite unless provoked.
[communication]
I’m one person with limited energy.
I respond when I can, I lurk often, and I disappear sometimes.
None of this is personal.
If you message me:
be patient
be kind
be normal (or at least normal-adjacent)
Cat-coded means I disappear sometimes. I’m not ignoring you—I’m regulating.
I promise I’m friendlier than Hawks; I just tend to vanish like him, too.
[final notes]
![[interests]](assets/images/gallery34/04327a55.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[interests]
I collect interests the way Hawks collects intel—obsessively with a questionable amount of enthusiasm and emotional investment. These are the things that shape my writing, my spaces, and the way I move through fandom—and the world.
[fandom anchors]
I connect with characters who are messy, morally complicated, emotionally literate, observant, or catastrophically repressed. I like stories with teeth—the kind that bite back when you least expect it. If it has psychological depth or aftermath energy, I’m already halfway obsessed.
Hawks (obviously)
Morally ambiguous disasters
Character studies with psychological depth
Trauma-informed narratives
Emotional literacy
Soft masculinity
Darkfic, hurt/no comfort, hurt/comfort
[creative fixations]
My brain latches onto motifs and symbolism, then refuses to let go. If a theme hits, I will dissect it, rebuild it, and turn it into a multi-chapter emotional vivisection that leaves them in beautiful, complicated pieces.
Symbolism and motif architecture
Narrative dissection
Character psychology
Worldbuilding
Colour palettes and visual language
Hawks-centric character studies
[design obsessions]
I treat design the same way I treat writing—intention, precision, and a bit of caffeinated chaos. If it can be colour-coded, it will be.
Manga panels
Desaturated aesthetics
Accent colours
IBM Plex Mono supremacy
Accessibility-driven layouts
Structured UI systems (over disparate pages)
[neurodivergent delights]
My brain runs on pattern recognition, hyperfixation, and stimulant-powered sprints. I love systems, routines, and anything that makes the chaos inside of me feel navigable.
hyperfocus spirals
ritualized writing routines
spreadsheets for everything
sensory-friendly designs
emotional regulation through creation.
[things that spark joy]
Not everything has to be serious. Some things just make my brain go brr.
cats and cat-coded things
cozy spaces
found family dynamics
quiet moments
emotional damage [/a]
bird jokes
dark humour
[fandom boundaries]
Some things drain the joy out of creation faster than a Commission memo. These are the patterns I avoid like the plague.
Fandom extraction
Parasocial entitlement
Boundary erosion
Cruelty disguised as critique
Expectations to perform
[other obsessions]
J-Horror
Cosmic Horror
Neurobiology
Psychology
Technomancy
Spreadsheet Sorcery
CSS Wizardry
Building digital spaces
[final notes]
![[requests]](assets/images/gallery02/8d1f9028.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[requests]
A centralized place for people to ask for help, feedback, or creative support without DM-sniping me or guessing what I’m up to. If you’re here, I assume you’ve read my T&Cs, Commissions, and Interests.Before you submit:
• Read this page
• Respect the boundaries
• Don’t assume availability
[what you can request]
Writing Feedback
Line edits, structural notes, pacing checks, clarity passes, etc.
Beta Reading
full chapters, oneshots, or scenes; I focus on coherence, tone, and SPAG. I use the Suggestions feature in Google/Proton Docs, and comments versioning in Ellipsus.
Note: I have a personal grudge against "said" as a dialogue tag.
Lore or Worldbuilding Help
Mechanics, naming, narrative consistency, ecosystem design, etc
Clarity Checks
“Does this make sense?”, “Is this readable?”, “Is this structurally sound?”, etc...
Technical Communication Help
Tightening, simplifying, or making something more neutral, direct, and executive.
Prompt Suggestions/Fic Writing
I can’t promise anything will happen with the prompt, but I'm open to seeing what sparks.
Commissions
You can also submit commission details through this form.
[what I won't take]
NSFW
I can check your grammar, but I am not the one to decide whether something is “hot”. The topic doesn’t interest me.
Requests That Replace Your Work
(e.g., “help rewrite this for me”)
I’ve done enough uncredited rewrites to get DARVO’d for setting boundaries. As a rule, I don’t provide this service. I’m not an AI, and you shouldn’t be using one creatively anyway.
AI-Generated Drafts You Want Me To ‘Fix’
I don’t clean up machine-written content for you to claim as your own. That’s not what AI tools are for.
Parasocial or Personal Requests
No emotional labor, no therapy, no “Hawks says...” anything. Until we’ve built a relationship, I am not your friend.
Urgent Turnaround
I’m one human with a life, a family, a job, and CPTSD.
[How to submit a request]
Send the following in your message:
Who you are (for workload tracking and proper credit where appropriate)
What you want
The length or scope of your request
Any specific concerns
A link or reference images (if applicable)
Your deadline (if you have one, though I may decline if it’s too tight)
If something is missing, I'll ask once. If it's still unclear, I'll decide.
[Turnaround expectations]
Small asks: 1-3 days
Medium asks: 3-7 days
Larger projects: variable
If I’m in a CPTSD downswing or real life gets busy, everything slows down
I'll do my best to be upfront about my bandwidth.
[queue & boundaries]
I take requests only as capacity allows
I may decline for any reason, including "I don't have the brain for this right now."
I will not justify my declines.
I don't chase people for missing info.
I don't do emotional management around feedback.
[the form]
![[commissions]](assets/images/gallery03/72ea6978.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[commissions]
I take on small-scale technical commissions for people who want their spaces to feel functional and a little bit magical. If you need fancy text, structured layouts, or a Carrd that won’t fight you, I’ve got you.
[services offered]
I currently offer the following:
Basic HTML Editing
Custom CSS Styling
Carrd creation & layout design
Discord server setup
Dyno configuration & automation
Each service is tailored to your needs, aesthetic, and comfort level with technology. I work collaboratively and communicate clearly. While I can work off “vibes”, I prefer transparent expectations and active feedback.
[rates]
All pricing is hourly and in US Dollars unless otherwise noted.
I keep things fair, simple, and upfront.
| Service | Rate |
|---|---|
| Basic HTML Editing | $15/hr |
| Custom CSS Styling | $20/hr |
| Standard Carrd Build | $30/hr |
| Premium Carrd Build | $40/hr |
Standard vs Premium
Standard -> clean, functional, aesthetic layout
Premium -> custom CSS, integrations, advanced structure
[add-ons]
Additional services I consider part of the above and subject to the same rates, but worth explicitly calling out
Custom colour palette creation
Typographical hierarchy setup
Accessibility considerations
Mobile layout configuration
Carrd troubleshooting
Discord role architecture
Dyno automod tuning
[events & freebies]
I will create free event Carrds under the following conditions:
I am on the server hosting the event
The event is not for profit
I am credited appropriately
I have sufficient Carrd slots available
You understand that free work is done on a flexible timeline
This keeps things fair, sustainable, and fun.
[policies]
These keep things running smoothly for both of us:
Payment for commissions is due upon the completion of each page
You may pay an $5 annual fee to have me host your site on my Carrd account (slot availability permitting)
My accreditation will be non-invasive but must remain until the site’s stylization has changed by 51% or more
I do not base commissions on existing templates—I roll on vibes unless you specify direction.
The customer is always right... in matters of taste. I’ll tell you if something looks bad, but you get final say.
I reserve the right to decline commissions that violate my boundaries or ethics.
All completed work will be delivered upon receipt of payment. No refunds will be issued.
[boundaries]
Important notes for you to know:
I do not work with known stolen assets or plagiarized layouts.
I do not recreate other creators’ designs without permission.
I reserve the right to decline commissions that are no longer comfortable.
I do not provide 24/7 availability.
While I will tolerate reasonable scope creep, there is a limit, and I do not tolerate entitlement.
Respect me and my time, and I’ll give you my best work.
[what to expect]
Working with me means:
clear communications
collaborative planning
regular check-ins
I don’t rush, I don’t cut corners, and I don’t disappear mid-project.
(Unless I’m regulating—but I’ll tell you first.)
[process]
You tell me what you need
We agree on the rate
We agree on the scope
I build, update, and check in
If scope creep happens, you are prepared to pay for the adjustment
You approve the final version of each page
Payment is sent upon the completion of each page via your preferred method
After the final payment is received, the product is turned over to you.
Simple. Clean. No paperwork.
[portfolio]
A curated selection of past commissions, layouts, and UI builds.
Carrd: personal endeavors
Carrd: commissions
Carrd: events
CSS/HTML: personalMultiple works on My AO3 have custom HTML and CSS stylings. I also post site skin edits on my socials and Discord from time to time.
[contact]
If you're interested in commissioning me, reach out via:
Tumblr DMs
Discord (if we share a server or connection)
Tell me what you’re looking for, your timeline, and any references you have.
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[original characters]
[ayea]
Sharp-tongued, warm-hearted, and impossible to intimidate, Ayea is the rare kind of person who sees straight through the hero façade. Hawks fell for her the moment she refused to be impressed by him—and loved him in a way that changed the shape of his life.
[model] | [mother] | [partner]
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery16/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[ciel]
Raised in isolation and taught to disappear into obedience, Ciel moves through the world with a softness that hides the depth of what she’s endured. She learned to survive by being small, warm, and attentive.Every version of her story starts in the same place. No matter the timeline, she’s the same wounded girl with the instinct to care for others even when no one ever cared for her, still trying to learn what safety feels like.
[survivor] | [wife] | [comfort girl] | [caretaker] | [chef]
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery18/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[kalas]
In the beginning, there was love and presence—a warm, steady foundation. But with the untimely death of the family’s nucleus, Kalas had to learn early how to read the room and adjust himself to bring others peace.He’s the child who became the caretaker, the son who became the anchor, and the young man who’s still trying to figure out who he is when no one needs saving.He learned to regulate himself so he wouldn’t drown in the feelings around him, and now he’s trying to remember what his own emotions feel like.
[son] | [observer] | [parentified child] | [caretaker] | [empath] | [civilian]
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery20/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[kaskel thorne]
Kaskel grew up learning to make himself sharp enough to survive and small enough to hide. A mixed-race orphan raised under the weight of someone else’s expectations, he learned early that love was conditional, affection was earned, and approval was only attainable on performance he could never quite perfect.On the outside, he is all bite—short, stylish, loud, and quick to posture. But beneath the bravado is a soft, aching center: a boy who was never chosen, never protected, and never allowed to simply be. His vitiligo blooms into a loon’s pattern across his skin, a reminder of the parts of himself he can’t hide, no matter how hard he tries.He’s young, angry, lonely, and luminous—a creamy, sad nougat wrapped in feathers and fury.
[loon] | [orphan] | [survivor] | [minimalist] | [loverboy in denial]
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery04/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[nox]
Raised like a weapon and treated like a warning, Nox grew up learning that she was something to fear, control, and contain. A feline heteromorph with low external presentation, she was punished for the way she looked long before anyone cared about who she was. Pain, isolation, and sterilization shaped her childhood—but so did the boy who refused to leave her side.She’s ethereal and dangerous, both soft and feral. A jaguar girl that is about as cuddly as a cactus, but with a heart too gentle for the world that made her. She survives on instinct, loyalty, and the thin thread of trust she built with Hawks in the dark Halls of the HPSC. Her story is a fight to reclaim her body, her freedom, and her right to exist without being feared.
[heteromorph] | [survivor] | [weaponized] | [jaguar] | [abandoned mate]
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery22/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[ria orimo]
Born into wealth, tradition, and expectation, Ria grew up in a world where her value was measured by the alliances she could secure and the image she upheld. A textile prodigy overshadowed by a father who took credit for her work, she learned early to swallow her brilliance and play the part expected of her. But beneath the silk and etiquette was a woman desperate for autonomy and a life that belonged to her.When she met Hawks at a hero tech conference, something shifted. He saw her, not the heiress, not the ornament, not the bargaining chip. Their connection was impulsive, electric, and freeing in a way she hadn’t felt before. It cost her her inheritance, her position, and her father’s approval—but it gave her back her life.Ria is quiet, reserved, and empathetic, with a calming presence that settles around people near her like a warm blanket. She grows things like herbs and medicinal plants, because nurturing life is the one thing that no one ever took from her.
[heiress] | [textile designer] | [environmentalist] | [submissive]
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery32/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[bonus features world hub]
The characters that make Kaskel’s world feel more lived in and alive. There’s more to the universe than Pro Heroes, Villains, and the UA kids, after all. Here, civilians are given a world, and Hawks just lives in it.
[the morimoto family]
A complicated part of Kaskel’s origin and the closest thing to family he’s ever known—complex, freactured, and deeply influential on his life. Their history casts long shadows, and each member plays a different role in the man he becomes.
[orbit characters]
The people who shape the world outside of the restaurant—friends, additional family, chance encounters, and characters who otherwise stuck in the gravitational pull. These characters connect Torimono to the wider story.
[torimono staff directory]
The heart of the story—a modern gastropub built on found familiy, individual brilliance, and the strength of community. Explore the space, the philosophy, and the people who make Torimono feel alive.
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery24/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[the morimoto family]
Before Torimono, there was the Morimoto household. It was a quiet, polished place where affection was conditional and perfection was the price of acceptance. These are the people who built Kas' earliest world, for better and for worse. Their influence lingers long after he leaves their home, shaping how he interacts with the world.
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery27/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[orbit characters]
These are the people Kas meets outside of the kitchen. They're friends, confidants, troublemakers, and unexpected anchors. They're not Torimono staff, and while their interactions may be brief or limited in context, they matter just as much.
![[original characters]](assets/images/gallery28/6b0a1080.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[original characters]
[torimono staff directory]
鳥物 (Torimono) wasn't supposed to be anything more than a failing gastropub Hawks bought for a kid he barely knew in the worlds strangest trade. Kaskel turned it into something else entirely—a fusion hub in Hakata, a second chance, and the place where he built the closest thing to a real family he ever had.
![[reader insert]](assets/images/gallery07/86cf97af.jpg?v=cdec6955)
[reader insert]
Where you are the center of the story.
I avoid descriptive terms and stand-ins such as (y/n) to keep immersion seamless.